In starting over, I was completely broken again. I didn't think that would happen. I have spent so many years building up walls that breaking them this last year has only strengthened my desire to keep them fortified.
And I'm laying here honestly wondering if I will ever be able to let anybody in again. I've met somebody new. Somebody I really like. And I want him to know me. So much. But the walls are so thick that I'm having a hard time letting my guard down long enough to even feel anything. Except I know I feel something. I just can't let my heart process that.
Maybe time. Maybe that's what I need. I've survived every heartbreak until this point. Letting myself feel and possibly fall and potentially hurt again won't kill me. So maybe I need to remind myself of that. Every minute of every day. Because I do really like this one. So much.
