Red lights turn to green lights.

Today was a most wonderful day. It's pouring rain outside. I love listening to the rain and just lying there doing absolutely nothing. I usually don't have the typical mormony things on my mind much, like finding a husband and making a family. But lately I can't stop those things from creeping up. All throughout teaching my lesson today in Relief Society I couldn't help but imagine my future.

Preston called me today. He woke me up out of a dead sleep. I think that was one of the best conversations of my life. Not because we talked about anything really significant or important. But because everytime he said "I love you" I just got butterflies. I couldn't even think straight because I just wanted him to know how much I love him. Because I really really do.

I went to Alene's and got to read to Addy and snuggle with her before she went to sleep. We sang what she calls the "angel song" and she laid down and I sang her to sleep. I normally don't sing, but for that little girl I'll do anything. I tried to whisper the words to the song "Somewhere Out There" but got choked up. I can't believe that everything is changing so much. I am going to miss her. And Alene and Andrew and Libby. My heart seriously breaks.

I guess it's off to write Preston and go to sleep. One day everybody I love will be in the same place together. And I won't miss somebody thousands of miles away. And I won't be watching the day approach that my family moves thousands of miles away. One day I won't be alone. It's soon. That, I am very sure of.

Goodnight.