the wallet card.

Life has been busy. Sometimes life gets so busy that I forget to stop and think about things that aren't involved in the business.

It has been getting cold here at night. Perhaps it's colder tonight because it rained this afternoon for a little while.

There's alot on my mind. I feel like something's missing. I don't know what. Like my heart is somewhere else, beating in their body, not mine.

I have so much to do. And enough time to complete it all. And keeping busy is really good. But I feel change coming.

I am upset about my sister moving. I don't want to be all alone here. But more than that, I know we won't be as close because she'll be so far away.

The dramatic part of me feels like crying. The rational side of me realizes I need to just breathe in and out.

I miss Preston. Sometimes I get tired of waiting for forever to start. Dreaming gets tiresome when you have to wake up to reality. 10 months. I can do it. Loving him makes everything okay, even when its not.

My calendar says April. I am going to tear off the page and live in May. Soon enough it will be June. The future will come soon enough.

I love you Alene.