Priorities.

I am rarely anybody's priority. That bothers me, alot.
Today I got fired from my job. Excuse me - demoted. That pisses me off more than anything could have, and I am pretty enraged about it. I put my heart and soul into making this company the best it could be. Right now I want to burn it to the ground.

I used to be really optimistic. But I feel like no matter what I do my life sucks. I am just SO sick and tired of being everybody's everything and having nothing.

I keep looking around my room. It is a disaster.
Speaking of my room, I have to move out. I can't pay rent. I have no job.

Speaking of jobs, I have to start looking for a new one. Otherwise I won't be able to make my car payment, or pay my insurance, or my phone bill. Speaking of which, all are due in the next week. Awesome.

My favorite is that I tried to resign a few weeks ago and they asked me to stay. I'm glad that they let me go a week before school starts and just in time for every student to have already returned and taken the good jobs.

What is it with my family? We get the shaft. ALL the time. It's easier to understand when I am supposedly not doing what I should be. But when I am trying to be a good person, usually a break once and awhile alleviates my utter hatred for life.

I feel a huge middle finger flying high these next few days.
And I wish Mark would have just picked up his effing phone tonight.
Awesome.