So it is, just like it should be.

I slept much more today than I intended. Anyways. After sleeping for years I decided to go on a walk with the roommates. It all started well and dandy except it began to hail and then the wind decided to blow the hail all over us. Walking home was absolutely awful. As soon as we got inside, the hail ceased and the sun came out. Isn't it ironic, don't you think? A little too ironic, yeah I really do think.

I am so tired from sleeping all day that I am ready for a nap.
But I have a hundred million things to do. Somehow I am 20 quizzes behind in my physical science class. As well as needing to take an exam and the final by thursday. I have two labs left to do in my physical science lab. And I have an Old Testament paper, 25 scriptures to memorize, as well as 8 lessons to make up in that class. I have an American Literature final exam to study for and a paper due in Advanced Lit. I have so much to do. It's a wonder I am not freaking out. Because any normal person would be freaking out. But here I am, sitting on the couch, listening to my roommate and her fiance do her homework, and I just keep typing away at this little blog like I don't have a care in the world.

But I do have a care in the world. Rexburg is taking its toll on me. I don't even know why I am in such a hurry to get my degree. I will have done 4 years of schooling in less than 3, which is out of control. I hope whomever I marry appreciates the sacrifice I am making on his behalf. Basically, now all I can think about is how excited I am for Arizona in one week...well actually thats what I think about to stop thinking about something else.

Anyways, I am conflicted and confused and really grumpy. I hate living with this sense of doubt about things. I hate being disappointed. I guess what they say is true: ignorance is bliss. I keep trying to get over it, but the more I think about it the more I think about it, and the more that happens I just start feeling badly.

If I had to pick one scene from any movie to describe exactly how I feel, this one is it. Most definitely.