So, I haven't updated in awhile. I'm in New Jersey. And I can't decide what to do. Do I suck it up and go back to Idaho and resume life? Or do I go back and pack up and move back to Jersey so that I can be around my family during this whole thing? Am I running away or being smart about this? What do I do? And why can't somebody just tell me the best decision? Either way it's going to be alot of work.
Last night I had a dream that I had brain surgery. And open heart surgery. And it was really ridiculous. And I've never been able to read into dreams that much. But that dream definitely let me know why I don't want to leave Idaho. I just never figured it out before now.
Sometimes what's right isn't always easy. But wow, I wish it was.
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here's my "opinion" take it or leave it. since i dont know what "this thing you are going though is" it's hard to give a full opinion. that being said, here goes. I ventured out to BYU and "spread my wings" and became quite the full fledged adult. Then i got sick and ran into a lot of problems. I ended up moving home...did i run away? maybe. did it help? ABSOLUTELY! Did i come back to Utah? 110% YES! I couldn't stand not being back in Utah, but I needed my family during the struggles i went through. all of them...(it happened more than once) as crazy as they are and as hard as it was and as bad as i felt and as much as i felt like a loser and a coward and like i was running away i still did it. and it turned out to be the right choice for me. does that mean its right for you? who knows...but that all being said here's my opinion...its not bad. it's not being afraid and it doesn't make you a loser...ok, enough said. I LOVE YOU!
ReplyDeleteheres my unofficial "opinion" take it for what it's worth...an opinion. i dont know fully what it is you are going through, so i cant fully comment, but here is my thoughts. I went off to college and became an "adult" and thought things were fine and dandy, then things fell apart. It was a mess. I needed to go back home for a while. As crazy and hard as my family is i needed them during this hard time. Was it hard? OF COURSE! Did I stay? HECK NO! I moved back to Utah as soon as i could! but i needed my family at that difficult time. did it help? ABSOLUTELY! Did i feel bad? did i feel like a failure and a loser? I did! BUT let me tell you this..those things weren't true then nor now and those feelings passed and actually EVERYONE who was ANYONE understood. SO, should you move back home? I don't know. is it right for you? i dont know. But i do know that if you decide to do so it doesn't reflect on you (cause if you are anything like me you are thinking it does) Anyway, wanted to share...and also tell you I LOVE YOU TONS!
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