I don't want to update tonight. But I will.
It was Sawyer's birthday today. I am grateful that the Tompkins included me in everything.

I feel very alone alot lately.
I think maybe I need a blessing.
Just because I am pretty sure I push everything I want away.
And now I feel the effects of that.


Ironically, the one thing I haven't pushed away is the one thing that has pushed me away. Oh life, your contradictions rarely amuse me anymore.