Disposable.

Today was a beautiful day full of happiness and sadness and some anger. It was a myriad of emotions and I'm laying here in bed, comfortable and grateful that I can see that sometimes, despite the trials, an empty glass can still be beautiful. 

My mom and I discussed how sometimes, when people treat you badly enough for long enough and then move on quickly, you begin to feel disposable. People aren't disposable. They are important and they matter. And I don't want to ever be made to feel that way again. 

I went out with a new friend tonight. And I adore her to pieces. She is the kindest soul I've met here. And I'm truly grateful for our laughter. I think laughing is one of my favorite things in the entire world. It's like fuel for my heart. And I literally feel myself craving it. And because my day was filled with laughter, my empty glass doesn't seem so empty. I guess sometimes, when your heart breaks, you begin to think that nothing will ever be the same again. But tonight made me realize I don't have to keep mourning the past. And even if there won't ever be love again, if I've missed my chance, if my soulmate doesn't exist or doesn't choose me or soulmates aren't real, at least I can find laughter.