Happy in the meantime.

I went out with Brynn tonight. Oh, I love her! I'm so grateful she and I live in the same state. My life is better with a best friend, for sure. We decided tonight that I'm a magnet for the same type of man: literally. His clone in every way contacted me today. And it was through her encouragement that I ended it before it began. It's strange how life does that. I'm glad my Brynners was there. And we laughed forever about it. I haven't laughed like that in so long. 

I said yes to a date tomorrow night. I decided it's ok. I woke up this morning and felt past it enough to not be rebounding like crazy. When I decide on things in a rational manner, I typically stick to that. My brain is much more logical than my heart. So I am listening to my brain.

I usually don't give myself the time to question whether or not the guy will like me before a date. I just analyze it afterwards. And I always wonder if I'm pretty enough or smart enough or funny enough. But this time, I realize that I am enough. And it is time I start analyzing whether or not he is handsome enough or smart enough or funny enough. No more reaching down. It's time for some equality. I deserve to get exactly what I want. 

(But in the meantime...what's the harm in making a little fun?)