I just can't see further than my own nose at this moment...

I am
I am
I am
I am
I am
I am
I am
I am
I am

notice a trend? there isn't anything there.
there isn't anything here.
and when I told him that, he answered perfectly.

I think God knew I needed somebody like him when I went through something like this. When I got a blessing tonight I was told that this was the path I was intended to be on. And that I was strong enough to be here. I don't know if he actually said that last part, but thats what I think he said.

My dad called last night. And I just couldn't tell him. Because I didn't know how he would react. I have always been cautious of how people view me and I just couldn't bring myself to tell him. It was Father's Day. And it's not now. So I'll tell him.

I want some Ginger Ale. I was thinking today when I bought the Ginger Ale that I don't like ginger very much. And how Ginger Ale doesn't taste alot like ginger. So I like Ginger Ale but not ginger. Or sushi.

I think things will get better. But until they do not many people are very understanding. Granted I don't say much. And I think I just expect people to not be understanding. I'm pretty sure that's why my last email to Preston I told him everything. And then told him that he can back out and I would understand. Normally, when I say things like that I want the guy to tell me he'll never back out. And normally, the plan backfires in my face and I end up alone when I really just need somebody to be there. So that is what I was expecting today. But he told me he is in. One hundred percent in. And he may not be perfect. But Preston is perfect for me.

I can't think of anything else to write. So I guess I better just go to bed. Goodnight.