I know I am alone with or without you...

Is there truth in your pain? You decide.

I slept for 14 hours today. And then cleaned my house. I like the berry smelling powder I sprinkle on the carpet before I vacuum. It is a very soothing smell.

My mom has called me everyday now. I feel bad about that. But I knew it would happen. I miss her, so I am okay with it.

I threw away the flowers on my front porch. Jared told me that I had to water them everyday and pick off the dead parts and I didn't listen. And they all died. Maybe it didn't help that I half-assed their actual planting because I was using one arm to do it. Or maybe its because everything escalated from there and I forgot about them because I haven't been out my front door in at least a week. Whatever the reason, they are dead.

I never was a great gardener. Probably because I didn't try very hard. I'll just get some more and plant them in the box so it doesn't look so empty.

I should call Matt and find out when little Lily's baby blessing is. I am terrible at keeping in touch with people. Absolutely terrible.

I am going to Mer and Brent's in about 10 minutes. I miss my best friend. And my other best friend. When they were my best friends. All my best friends moved away. Or are on missions. Or are married to each other.

I want somebody to talk to. Hold a physical conversation face to face. Ah, well. I guess that is what Tuesday is for. People never are how they seem. If you are reading this, remember that.